I used to cry a lot. After I gave birth to Leo I had crippling depression. I remember feeling like a shell of the person I once was. I remember feeling like my entire existence was just empty space. I remember wondering who I might be once (if) I had a personality again.
Lately I dance a lot. I’ve found that on the other side of my valley I am much of the same person I was before becoming a mother. I find myself making stupid jokes like I used to. I find a lot of joy in movement - through exercise like I used to.
But dancing.. that is something I never used to do. I didn’t grow up in an environment that put any value, or interest in music so I never learned to dance. I make this joke that I have no rhythm, but it’s been true my whole life. When you don’t grow up around very much music you literally don’t even know how to find a beat. Well in recent months I’ve found my beat, and to take it further I dropped my cool card and started moving to the beat. I never thought I would say this in my life but I love to dance now. I do it everyday. In the car, while I’m making breakfast, between sets when I lift, sometimes you’ll even find me in class shimmying between poses 😂
What’s something you love to do that you never in your life thought you would?
I survived #hotyoga for the first time. Thank God I had my favorite person there to mentally compete with or I would have given up 5 minutes in.
Still feel like my eyes are going to pop out of my head, but otherwise fantastic. Let's do it again tomorrow!!