Just thought I may share some late night thoughts before I drift off to sleep, I havent gotten much sleep recently. Anyways, it's been about 4 months since I last gave any kind of update on really anything. I know this page hasn't been as active as it should be. This page use to be super active, don't worry I'm still here! I'm just in the shadows....boo. The thing I wanted to share was an update on my dedication. It's been 4 months since my last update, honestly I feel my dedication is slipping. I'm just worn out every day. I use to study nearly every day, but with school and having to work I've just been super tired. I've forgotten my reasoning behind why I even began this journey. I mean I remember why, but I feel my reasoning has changed. Do I act like the person I should? No. Have I forgotten what I live under? Allot of the time, yes. I'm an Atheist and I will NEVER forget that. But this summer I had forgotten what I had dedicated myself too. I look back at my choice to follow this and I think it was such a silly decision, but honestly... this has taught me more than any religion has. It's taught me self control, humility, respect and most importantly how to do with right thing. Perhaps there is a lesson in this. Perhaps I'm too tired to understand it. But I just thought I'd share what's on my mind tonight.